Saturday, May 28, 2011

quoting Juno.

You're gonna have to do me a huge solid and just sit tight with me. 

Things are aall over the place right now. Nothing too overwhelming, lots of good things actually!! And as much as I wish that I could sit down and share them as I go, I'm trying really hard to keep a healthy balance and it's been a couple of weird months. :) I have my entire blogger list securely downloaded on my trusted google reader app on ma evooo, so I'm keeping up on all your blogging goodness and it's keeping me connected! I'm just gonna be the girl that's faking cramps in P.E. so she doesn't have to. 

"You're golden, man." - Juno

xo . jess 

Friday, May 20, 2011

it's friday pumpkinnn.

and lauren's playin her blanks! go here to play too. 

1. People always tell me I look like...the latest brunette starlet. Honestly, I've heard a lot. I used to get Britney Spears and Katie Holmes. Lately,ever since I took my hair back to its dark dark brown roots again, I've gotten Vanessa Hudgens, and Mila Kunis. When I was a teen I was in loove with Katie so I think she's by far been my favorite look-a-like, but hell-ya-i-love-you for thinking I look like Mila Kunis :P Although I have to secretly admit my current hair inspiration is ms hudgens so that people think I look like her might just mean I'm pulling it off :P

2. Friends don't let friends go. 

3. A sunny day is perfect for driving to the mountains with N. 

4. My favorite accessory is my Nikon.

5. If I could afford it I would go on vacation every 2-3 months. 

6. The cure for boredom is calling my sister Dina. :) Always a fool proof move. 

7. I'm currently "in like" with running this song on repeat on my iTunes. my youTube. my phone. my car. all the same to me ;) 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

i might love brunch more than my mommy. juuust kidding :)

It's only a work day into the week and I'm already exhausted :P Alright, that's a little bit of an exaggeration, but I was out of the house 2 hours before N even had to get up today, and didn't see him again until 10pm tonight. It's been rough having such a different schedule. Yes we can be a little whiny :P but it sucks when you're spending your weeks in passing. Where's the fun in that? And the sex! :P

Before I tuck my aching feets and self into my bed I wanted to share with you some of the mother's day pictures because I do really heart them. It was such a yummy brunch and so much fun! The weather was fantastic, the food was amazing, and our champagne ended up being free!! hollaaa :P

such a mommy's boy. i'm beginning to have a hard time that that little justinbieberteenager is my 13yr old brother :[ 

there's people that refuse to believe I can have bad hair/outfit/everything days. this picture is proof. guess I really didn't care this day :)

♥ senabena

again. this girl and the kiddos. 

*favorite photo of the day*

my absolute favorite picture of my brother :))

these two gangin' up on the little guy..

..end up seriously karate chopping the shit out of my brother's neck. he lived. 


Wishing you all a good rest of the week. I'll be checking in sometime mid-week and will have your posts to keep me company during lunch hours this week ;) 

xo . jess

Sunday, May 08, 2011

hooray for moms.

I hope you all are enjoying a wonderful mother's day. Maybe it's not that big of deal, but I never have these holidays off, and it is soo nice out and it's been a pretty great day, so I'm all over it. Even my sister made it down from downtown to go to brunch with us this morning at Village Tavern by the Flatirons Mall (sidenote* never been there and the food was pretty freaking awesome!)

Amy & B my favorite mommy&daughter combo, and the older sister I never had, Sena met us for yummy breakfast food and mimosas! Can't wait to show you photos later. For now we're soaking up some rays on my mom's porch, mr.ray is putting golf balls around the field (so not white trash) and I'm sitting around to tell you about it :)

For dinner we're stopping by the grocery store for some bbq supplies and heading to n's mom's house. Hope you all have a fabulous day.

xo . jess

Monday, May 02, 2011

dear diary, i need an update.

spent the day at my sister's house lounging and watching movies. we were supposed to unpack and decorate her new place. oops. we rainchecked for friday. 
got a bit of a word heavy post for you, but..I think it's a good one. 

I'm not really much of an "updater". I try to squeeze little tidbits about the happenings in my every day life in with posts here and there. But lately I am asking myself if I've been just plain vague with you lately, but then I'm not sure if it's just me and I'm talking myself up to sitting down and spewing out a little bullet pointed post to make myself feel better; not you guys. You're going to find this really strange, the behavior and thought process of mine that I'm about to share with you guys. But for the first time in a few months I can feel footage again. Routine has settled back into my life and even though I am desperate to still make changes to my surroundings, I am welcoming that routine with open arms!

I'm justifying this coming back down moment with the events that moving out of your house, graduating college, new apartment, watching your fiancĂ©e move halfway across country without you only 4 months prior to your wedding, alone in said apartment, planning your wedding, lots of family, get married, go on honeymoon, pack up life, drive across country, new apartment, same job new store, endless home searching, making a 180 and packing up things again, going back home, living with parents, same job new store again, realizing hey - we got married (!!!!!!!!!) is a lot of fucking events for a timeline that is shy of 9 months. 

The other morning, N and I were starting to wake up yet still dozing, and at one point I turned my head to N and whispered "it's so, quiet."
Let's just say, being able to keep up with laundry, making the bed, balancing (and gaining back!) my energy between work and getting to the gym on a regular basis is a big thing for me. But I'm getting ahead of myself here. So let me skip ahead to that "bulleting" I had mentioned earlier and give you a quick witty update of what's been going on, what's happening, and what's to come!

what's been going on

  • work. work. work. me, I'm working downtown still and either loving or hating it. Literally, but they're starting to meet in the middle and there too I feel I have found more balance. Since we've been back I feel like I've just been throwing myself into work and nothing else but coming home and taking refuge on the couch. (combined with my winter blues that was reeeal attractive) I did tell you that I was running again and I can already feel my energy rushing back some days and something's gotta happen cuz I'm not going back to work + couch = my life. no sir. 
  • so, you know how girls are usually their skinniest at their wedding? (I say skinny not healthy, because I've been there. I know it's not about healthy it's about looking as tiny as possible in that stupid dress. Alright, NOT stupid..but true.) Well, although I don't think I looked fat on my wedding day, I was neither healthy nor skinny. And several months later, I am realizing that the time around my wedding I was the unhealthiest I've ever been. I think I worked out maybe 3 times last year? I've battled weight, stomach, and emotional issues over this and no more. Again this is getting better and better. 
  • my hair is growing and I looove it! and I'm so sorry Hair(too)sday has been off air lately. I've honestly just been giving my locks a break from all experiences and just getting a feel for it getting longer again and playing with the length, etc. i'm a little sad, cuz I've noticed that growing back, it's not as curly as it was before the 13 inches of curl awesomeness. but I think I like where it's going :)
what's happening
  • n is desperately on the job hunt and lately our mini battles have been about him going back and finishing school sooner rather than later. 
  • we have decided to move downtown Denver (!!!!! YAAY!) and are both totally smiley faced about it. we have the rest of our lives to live in suburbia and there's financial things we want to accomplish and want to put first before getting a bigger place for the two of us and so nixed a house in the butt. it's funny because we are very flipped from a lot of our friends. we already lived in our house and had a house. so for us it's cool and new to think of a smaller more intimate place for just us two. therefore, we are on a desperate search at the moment. 
  • lately I've been mulling all kinds of emotions over and over. From feeling different, very different in my own skin to my priorities now, to feeling completely new things in my relationship with n, wondering (with n aloud sometimes) what happens when everything starts to feel like marriage, to wanting and embracing the simpler things. I won't deny that I've been a very introverted person lately. I've not kept in touch, only seen very little of my friends, some not at all, but I can't help but ignore that even when the contact is there, I'm not much of interest, but...I'm starting to think that that's okay. I think I even prefer it that way for now. 
what's to come
  • continuing right on from the previous part, I think turning 24 next month is going to be really good for me. I have this image of myself in my head of the person that I want to be, but I'm not sure if I'm all the way her yet. I know, I'm just trying to come up with a different way of saying I'm trying to find myself, but call it what you want, I'm even keeping a diary again lately. 
  • I want to add to the sort of lost thought a few lines back about being "ignored" by friends ..I didn't mean this negatively, but at first I think my reaction was, "well why does no one like me?" to "maybe they are sick of hearing about me" for awhile. I did just get married and even though I don't think I was that kind of bride to be, it was a long engagement and the months leading up to the big even were quite stressful on not just me. as much as I want my relationships rekindled, I think I needed this time out. 
  • last on the list is graduations, birthdays, successes, summertime, and new beginnings!! And come on, you know me, nothing's ever complete without a little d.raamaa.a :)