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...late Sunday night... ... ...

I know. I'm a bad person. Turning in my blanks so late. But I've worked almost 26 hours in the last two days and those little blanks just zoomed right by me. So here I am, Sunday night, this week without them blues, because I have tomorrow off work, get to sleep in and have a deliciously long list of errands to run and a beautiful to*do list to go along with it.

on a side note... I can't believe it's been barely over a week that I've been in Michigan and I've caught myself so many times already thinking these thoughts that could produce serious blog posts. It takes me about 25-30 minutes to get to work, and that leaves a lot of thinking time to a girl like me. On tomorrow's to*do is to sit down and blog, so maybe you'll get some insight to my jibber jabber.



i am...so emotionally disoriented.

i wish...we could start making babies tonight O:)

i like...not being cold in my sleep anymore.

i can...go on without you.

i hope...you are happy.

i think...we will still laugh like two 17 year olds at the age of 79.

i was...imagining your smile today. 

Happy 101 Award

littmrssunshine?? An award!! Why you shouldn't haveeee. 

Alright let's back up a bit. I had a really poopy day. Spent it driving home from work fighting back the tears again and I'm sick of it. I can't figure out if my lady days and all this frustration is running together and that's why my emotions are a bit out of whack, or if it's because I got married, moved away from my home, my family, started a new job (that I'm turning out to really dislike), and still haven't found a place to live out here. 


I have a strong feeling it's option A. Option B just seems to easy. 


But seriously. The heck is my deal? I'm a big girl now. A married woman and I'm still crying for my mommy?? (yeeeeeeeeeeeeesssss *sniff*) I do miss you mamacitaa! But I've got to snap out of it. One of my sister's best friends posted on her Facebook status the other day "I don't think I can have bad days" and if you knew her, reading that would warm your heart as much as it did mine and you would have felt the little "slaponthehandquityobitchin'" too. 


I know things will look up. And every morning I mentor myself that attitude is half the battle. So I sit there shivering in my car for the first 20 minutes, hands at 10 and 2, in silence because Michigan radio sucks balls and they have absolutely no good morning stations, telling myself "you have to be positive Jess" "look at it this way" "you're better than that" "it will work out" "make the best of it" All that! And I still come home crying. 


But I'm not giving up. I'm a Gemini and littlemsbitchy has had too much spotlight. Time for littmrsSUNSHINE to get back out here and join the party!!!! this really only makes sense if you know that Gemini's supposedly have 2 different "sides" or "faces" to them ;-) I'm glad I filled you in too. *thumbsup* 


SO. I think I should get an award for that lovely little the sun shines out of my ass speech..but apparently, the charming mrs mandee at [the bear naked truth] thinks otherwise! 

lovely mandee awarded me this happy101award !

i found this adorable lady through comment stalking other people on a blog we both follow. 

Of course, there's no award without a little rules. Otherwise it just ain't no fun!

Rules for happy101award

√ post who gave you this award. 

√ state ten things you like.

√ give this award to 10 other bloggers

and notify them with a comment.

10 things I'm really lovin':

1. being a mrs.
2. laughing and playing "what movie's he from???" with billy again.
3. my self-cut-while-camping-on-my-honeymoon, bangs.
4. feeling alive.
5. when Oliver brings me as many toys as he can fit in his mouth when I come home.
6. being part of my crazy amazing (extended) family.
7. that it's that patterned-fishnets-tights time of year.
8. that it's boots with everything season.
9. that you still haven't called and I feel no indifference. 
10. that this Theraflu Cold&Cough Tea tastes so amazing, there's no way I'll get even a sniffly nose this cold season!!

littmrssunshine awards you:

MileHighDude

cest' la vie

ambition never goes outta style

Merl & Bev's Greatest Adventure

Aull About Nothing

my so-called Denver

the accessories junkie

the little things we do

Have a fabulous Friday winners. While you award your own 10 bloggers, I'm gonna go hang out at Lauren's for Fill in the Blanks! woop woop 

 

Carpe Diem! sorry :P I couldn't resist.

Hello Goodbye

Do you remember those commercials where the background music always sang "hello goobye hello goodbyeeee!!" ?? I think they were Target commercials. :P Anyway..today was a fantastical day, even though it was my last day hence the goodbye post for F21 earlier today, 5 minutes after I worked into work, that's what I felt like singing. 


To quickly fill you in, I was not approved for a direct transfer to another F21 in Michigan, because I was going to be out of work too long with the wedding and N and I taking our honeymoon and then moving to Michigan. So my plan was to just try my hardest to get rehired as soon as I got there. 


WELL. It seems as though my luck has turned people! I got to work today and the next thing I knew, I was on the phone with the mgr that I've been in contact with in Michigan since August and she casually informs me that she worked her magic and got me a direct transfer to hear store!! :D I was/am soooo excited! My benefits will transfer and I'll be able to add N on right away after we're married and I won't have to worry about possibly not having a job once I get there!! :) 


I'm so so happy. Thank you luck. Are you trying to tell me something? Could it be possible that you have finally come back to me? :) If you are..I am welcoming you with wide open arms! I tell you what..

So tonight marked the last night of working with my team here in Colorado however, which makes me very sad but I have great things to look forward to in the next week, two weeks, three weeks, and so on :)

Starting with tomorrow, I will be heading to DIA to pick up my best friend, soulmate, and cousin Katie! I've not seen her since March (!) when N and I visited her and her family (and our godson) and I cannot wait to hug her, laugh with her, and have her here with me for the next two weeks!