big. pink. and furry.

What was that? Don't ask me, because even though I'm pretty sure I'm over it, something was up and I couldn't begin to tell you what it was. Well, ok you're right. I could. I could talk your ear off for hours boring you with my theories. The short version is, let's face it, is that I'm an emotional young miss. I over analyze, I criticize, I get sad, I cry, I pout,..all those uber attractive things all of us (girls and boys) have our own little copy of.

In clear words - the first couple days were a cultureshock and mini overload of realizing ijustgotmarried, imawife, immovinghalfwayacroosthecountry, iwontseemymamacitaeveryweek, imgonnamissouton... (insert ~10-15 events) and so on and so on. But fortunately, this last week was much better. I had better days at work, I got a little of my confidence back, I made some friends at work, I woke up with N's arm wrapped around me every morning, and I managed to throw together some cute outfits. My bangs also looked smashing every day of the week.

Look how perfect they are. And if you caught my tweets from Wednesday..this is the rockin famous big pink furry vest. The last thing I bought at my old store, so self conscious to wear it, but haven't gotten this many compliments on an outfit in a long time, famous vest. I loved it. Have worn it twice since, and firmly believe every girl needs to rock a furry vest this season. :)

In retrospect, it was a pretty fantastic week. Despite the fact that we still haven't had luck with our house hunting. We continue to grind our teeth and keep looking. I'll alert you as soon as the situation is looking up. 

Which already brings us to Halloween weekend which also has pretty decent with N, Birry and I all having today off from work and two nights of successful crappingourpantswithscarymoviewatching nights. Lounging around this spooky day together, munchin', and watching more superscarydon'tleavemealone, movies. 

have a happy halloween.

happy.HaLlOwEeN.

I think I snapped out of it. 

Have the happiest and spookiest Halloween. 

onmy6thcandybar your scaredy cat, 

jess

Fill in The Blanks

My Halloween plans for this year include house hunting in the morning with a hot cup of coffee holding my husband's hand. Spending the day lounging tangled together tv flippin' between a football game and a scary tv show. Making it a night with a line up of scary movies and bags of candy. And no we're not sharing :D 

My most memorable Halloween costume was when I went all out to be a Moulin Rouge dancer. I spent a lot of time getting my costume together; more than multiple trips to different Halloween stores, spending money on several accessories including gloves, huge eyelashes, stockings, shoes, headpiece, and make up. I still have all the pieces to this day. I hope to bust it out again one day! :) 

For this year's Halloween I'm going to be in a comfy pair of weekend jeans, a white t-shirt, and cons. 

I've always wanted to dress up as an awesome pirate bride. In a super sexy top with the pants and boots combo, with long curly hair, and huge hoops, and a hat. No bandana! (I just came up with my outfit for next year)

Halloween free association I honestly, and seriously have NO IDEA what this question means. I didn't think I would ever find another thing my German childrearing was at fault for me not getting it. 

The worst thing about Halloween is that it involves scaring. A lot, a lot, a lot , a loooot  of scaring. :-{ 

The best thing about Halloween is that you get to dress up and you get buckets of free candy. 

Time Out

Hi kids, 




I apologize in advance. I don't know what it is. I'm in a slump. A big fat bloggincreativeanything slump. I think I just need a short time out. I need a whole new blog makeover, including look. If you have any tips, secrets, or wise words on how to get out of this mess..shoot them my way 

Jessica.Derx@gmail.com

we bit Wednesdays. halloween week

ever since I've been following a new fave mandee I've always loved reading her we bit of me Wednesdays posts and this week I'm participating! This week it is cleverly themed around Halloween and even though it is my least favorite holiday :P (I'm a huuuuuge scaredy cat) I am playing along this week. 

play with us here

{one} have you ever seen a ghost? 

Weird story/experience. I think I have. In clear daylight in the middle of a city while I was traveling with my family. We were riding our bikes through this town and we were going slow because there were pedestrians all around. I was casually looking around when I met eyes with this middle aged, slightly balding, tall man with his hands crossed behind his back, standing at the edge of the side walk on the opposite side of the street, just staring at me with this huge grin on his face. At first I thought he was just watching my family and I riding our bikes, but he just kept staring and turning his head as we were riding by. 

I know it sounds so lame, and I've never actually told anyone this story, but to this day it was the weirdest thing that I think about when people ask me if I've seen a ghost. 

{two} when was the last time you dressed up for Halloween?

Last year when my friend Bri flew in from California to celebrate Halloween with me. I was Roxy Heart from Chicago and Bri was a sexy vampire. Halloween happened to be on Saturday last year and we partied Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. Oohhh the college days. 

{three} what's your favorite candy?

I honestly go through phases with candy. At the moment I would devour an entire bag of Almond Joys at any given time. 

{four} did you have a favorite costume growing up?

Not that I really remember a one favorite costume. I just remember always being something "boyish": a cowgirl, a vampire, a clown. I was never something really girly. 

{five} did you carve pumpkins this year?

No. :-( I didn't even go to a pumpkin patch this year!

{six} what's your favorite scary movie?

I don't really have a favorite. I'm one of those people that can get pretty terrified during scary movies, but it doesn't take too much to talk me into watching pretty scary stuff. One movie that always creeps me out though is Signs. I don't know why, but that movie gives me serious goose bumps. 

{seven} haunted houses or corn mazes?

Neither. That is one thing I do not have the guts for. I do not do well having actual people scare me. My good friends know that I will most likely start crying and seriously losing my shit if they were to scare me for real and they only know this from having done it. Nick and his cousin scared a friend and me one time by hiding in the house when we came over, turning off all the power to the house and making noises from where they were hiding. Let's just say the second the lights shut off I was glued to the couch scared to death :) I'm a huuge pussy. :P 

{eight} are you superstitious?

No. Not at all actually. 

{nine} have you ever owned a black cat?

Nein. 

{ten} what are you plans for this coming Halloween?

Most likely working during the day, if I don't end up working the floorset the first night, and if I do have the night off, sitting at home with Nick and Billy watching a number of scary movies. 

Flitterwochen.

...because honeymoon sounds dirty. 


Here I am Skyping with my friend Johannes that came to visit me all the way from Germany for my wedding and I'm telling him that I'm in the process of uploading my honeymoon pictures to Facebook. He quickly expressed that he was very concerned about the pictures I was posting, because he says in Germany "honeymoon sounds like SO sexual for Germans". 


Apparently, they have adapted the term "honeymoon disease" as to correctly diagnose a bladder infection and that is all they think of when people, like me, talk about their honeymoon. :) Dirty Germans. Those silly kids. 


Either way, it got me thinking that, maybe it wouldn't hurt to reposition myself on my bed a bit so I could actually type, and get to posting about the month of October and it's events that occurred. That then brings the question..do I go in order..bachelorette party, wedding, honeymoon? Or give you whatever I feel like. 


Well..since I'm already over dealing with the 786 pictures of our honeymoon from putting them on Facebook..let's go with 
bachelorette party :D 

my beautiful maid.of.honor

my beautiful brideshelpmewitheverythingmaid 

all my beautiful girls






































pretty miss.

the sexy ladies

very sexy miss.

hanging out with her water. so close yet still no shot. 

my mom and older sister I never had.

my bffe. 

the smile twins. 

♥

give it to me baby.

my soulmate. 

the party crew. 

getting kissed by Australians. 

a classic*chic bacheloretty party night. 

Fill in the Blank

...late Sunday night... ... ...

I know. I'm a bad person. Turning in my blanks so late. But I've worked almost 26 hours in the last two days and those little blanks just zoomed right by me. So here I am, Sunday night, this week without them blues, because I have tomorrow off work, get to sleep in and have a deliciously long list of errands to run and a beautiful to*do list to go along with it.

on a side note... I can't believe it's been barely over a week that I've been in Michigan and I've caught myself so many times already thinking these thoughts that could produce serious blog posts. It takes me about 25-30 minutes to get to work, and that leaves a lot of thinking time to a girl like me. On tomorrow's to*do is to sit down and blog, so maybe you'll get some insight to my jibber jabber.



i am...so emotionally disoriented.

i wish...we could start making babies tonight O:)

i like...not being cold in my sleep anymore.

i can...go on without you.

i hope...you are happy.

i think...we will still laugh like two 17 year olds at the age of 79.

i was...imagining your smile today. 

Happy 101 Award

littmrssunshine?? An award!! Why you shouldn't haveeee. 

Alright let's back up a bit. I had a really poopy day. Spent it driving home from work fighting back the tears again and I'm sick of it. I can't figure out if my lady days and all this frustration is running together and that's why my emotions are a bit out of whack, or if it's because I got married, moved away from my home, my family, started a new job (that I'm turning out to really dislike), and still haven't found a place to live out here. 


I have a strong feeling it's option A. Option B just seems to easy. 


But seriously. The heck is my deal? I'm a big girl now. A married woman and I'm still crying for my mommy?? (yeeeeeeeeeeeeesssss *sniff*) I do miss you mamacitaa! But I've got to snap out of it. One of my sister's best friends posted on her Facebook status the other day "I don't think I can have bad days" and if you knew her, reading that would warm your heart as much as it did mine and you would have felt the little "slaponthehandquityobitchin'" too. 


I know things will look up. And every morning I mentor myself that attitude is half the battle. So I sit there shivering in my car for the first 20 minutes, hands at 10 and 2, in silence because Michigan radio sucks balls and they have absolutely no good morning stations, telling myself "you have to be positive Jess" "look at it this way" "you're better than that" "it will work out" "make the best of it" All that! And I still come home crying. 


But I'm not giving up. I'm a Gemini and littlemsbitchy has had too much spotlight. Time for littmrsSUNSHINE to get back out here and join the party!!!! this really only makes sense if you know that Gemini's supposedly have 2 different "sides" or "faces" to them ;-) I'm glad I filled you in too. *thumbsup* 


SO. I think I should get an award for that lovely little the sun shines out of my ass speech..but apparently, the charming mrs mandee at [the bear naked truth] thinks otherwise! 

lovely mandee awarded me this happy101award !

i found this adorable lady through comment stalking other people on a blog we both follow. 

Of course, there's no award without a little rules. Otherwise it just ain't no fun!

Rules for happy101award

√ post who gave you this award. 

√ state ten things you like.

√ give this award to 10 other bloggers

and notify them with a comment.

10 things I'm really lovin':

1. being a mrs.
2. laughing and playing "what movie's he from???" with billy again.
3. my self-cut-while-camping-on-my-honeymoon, bangs.
4. feeling alive.
5. when Oliver brings me as many toys as he can fit in his mouth when I come home.
6. being part of my crazy amazing (extended) family.
7. that it's that patterned-fishnets-tights time of year.
8. that it's boots with everything season.
9. that you still haven't called and I feel no indifference. 
10. that this Theraflu Cold&Cough Tea tastes so amazing, there's no way I'll get even a sniffly nose this cold season!!

littmrssunshine awards you:

MileHighDude

cest' la vie

ambition never goes outta style

Merl & Bev's Greatest Adventure

Aull About Nothing

my so-called Denver

the accessories junkie

the little things we do

Have a fabulous Friday winners. While you award your own 10 bloggers, I'm gonna go hang out at Lauren's for Fill in the Blanks! woop woop 

 

Carpe Diem! sorry :P I couldn't resist.

Hi. My name is psycho.

Meet a very special side of Jessica. One you most likely have not had the pleasure of meeting. Well, actually, I take that back. Most of you reading this probably consider yourself family (or wish you were :)) but if you really are part of my family, you have had the pleasure of meeting this side of me. Don't worry, me trying to make you feel bad about not being in my family will cancel out when you realize that this is something you should count yourself lucky to not be part of it. Alright I know. I'm doing nothing but talking in circles now. Well. Meet grumpy Jess.

Not that I have a bad temper. But when something really gets under my skin, and more times than others that thing doesn't have to be too big..just at the right moment type of thing, I'm done for. I blow up for about 5 minutes. Then I'm over it. And then I sulk. And even though I don't want to be I just STAY GRUMPY. For hours. usually not for days. But for those few hours, sucks if you just happen to be around. Because I want to kick every little thing in sight, just like cute ol' grandpa here. (As a replacement, I bang shit. My phone for example. It takes a beating now or then)

I was so excited to come home and blog with you guys tonight. Now, I don't even know what the hell I was going to blab about in the first place. So I guess you're sol for tonight. 

I'll try again tomorrow. 

Back in the Blog

I've missed you! And I'd be lying if I said that I tried really hard not to blog throughout these past 2 almost 3 weeks! It has been a crazy thrill ride from which I'm still reaming :) and dreaming maybe, but tomorrow reality and day to day life will smack me on the back of the head and I'll be back in the game. I can't lie..tomorrow exactly I will have had an entire month off. Off of everything. Work. School. And it felt fantastic! Even though I was a busy busy bee finishing up wedding things the last two weeks of September..

..including my bachelorette party..

having the most surreal and wonderful wedding weekend

..when I get more wedding images I will dedicate a whole post to our beautiful day :) ..

got to spend a few days with my family

..my sis Dina, best friend & cousin Katie, and I at the Denver Zoo..

and spend an unbelievably romantic and fun week with Nick roadtripping the coast of Oregon

..walking along the Seaside beach..

It was a fantastic month and I'm sad to see it go. But I'm ready to start the new things that have made themselves comfy in my life, such as my new husband (I don't mind him too much), my new job starting tomorrow at a brand new F21 location out here in Michigan, our new home her in MI (which we're actually still working on finding) and our new LIFE overall!  

What better way to start off a new life than with a new look to your blog :D Hope you enjoy and forgive me for being so incredibly boring and mia for the past three weeks. I've caught up on all my reading over the weekend and I know I'm going to have to get back into swings slowly :) I still don't have all my images in order from all sorts of events of the past month, but when I do I'll dedicate entire posts just for your pleasure. To ensure you that I really wasn't just being lazy ;).